none of this will matter in 10 years.
Do not look for a sanctuary in anyone except yourself.
Siddhārtha Gautama (via
The day I found out,
you were collapsed on the kitchen table
peanut butter smeared across your naked body
where you had tried to reach all the way around
to hold yourself together
you had lost yourself halfway through making us both tattered pieces of breakfast
there was a knife trembling on the floor and even the teapot was silent as though our entire house knew what you wanted to do with it
my arms could not gather you like I know you needed but you sobbed ‘I’m so, so sad, all the time’ into the hollow of my throat
and I whispered ‘I know and I love you still’ over and over until you heard that I meant it
Azra.T ‘when the darkness takes you, I will reach into the abyss and bring you back’ (via